Today is my 🎂, like most people, this day always have special feelings, I think I should write something down.

Hello, 23-year-old Petterp.

About the past

I believe everyone has different ideas at different ages. These ideas tend to go by as time goes by, and later we often feel that we were too young at that time.

In the eyes of outsiders, I am an optimistic person, who seems to have nothing too much to worry about, but in fact I am quite pessimistic. Pessimism here refers to the change of things, always inevitably think of the result.

It’s easy to get stuck in a situation where you don’t know what to do. At this time, I will think of my classmates. I will give them a phone call, but I just want to chat with them. We will find time to get together on the weekend, most of the time I ran from haidian, have a meal, must come back in the evening, I always tell them home 🐱 have to take care of, in fact, is a sense of urgency to tell me, can not stay down, otherwise tomorrow and idle a day, but in fact often the second day or the same 🙃.

< two handsome guys, no P in original picture, both single >. Another person that day because has been chatting with his girlfriend, did not take a picture, in order to prevent later see this article said THAT I am not affectionate, I still found a picture of us three same screen, the first one on the left is.

In fact, most of the time, I’m glad that being alone, being alone means that you don’t have a second voice about what you want to do, it means that you can do something else at someone else’s leisure time, like occasionally wondering if you can change the world. But more often than not, you’re thinking about what you’re going to do for the next phase. Affirmation has voiceover, in the final analysis still is not single, with this concern really not quite ha ha actually, but cannot say to have no relation 😂.

Sometimes I think of my father, and sometimes I wonder if he would still be looking at me now if the family had not been so poor when I was a child and had been able to see the doctor in time. But the truth is THAT I rarely think of him, but every time, because of some external circumstance, suddenly remembered. I seem to have almost forgotten the appearance, but it is so clear. Forgive me for saying more about my father. My father was the kind of man who liked to hide things he didn’t like, probably like the lyrics in my Father’s Prose poem. If you do the math, it’s almost 10 years. 10 years can change a lot. 10 years can wrinkle another person. I miss him a lot, I do, so keep that to myself.

This year, the number of times to call my mother is significantly more, almost once a week, every week to call back, she always told me a bunch of things at home, I used to be very tired of these things, now I gradually understand these nagging, I am afraid she will leave one day, then really left me, every time I think of here, always feel bad. My mother is a strong person. In fact, she is the most active person in the crowd, and she is also the kind of person everyone likes. But I understand that she always thinks from the perspective of others and forgets herself most of the time. I have inherited her hyperactivity and eccentric ideas, but I must block her when this article goes out, or she may be upset.

I raised a cat, it is called Pikachu, but I always feel that it is a father-in-law, nothing meow meow, touch on the call, fierce also call, I once thought that it is not well developed, but may be the reason of personality and estrus. Sometimes think, it is not easy, every day in my room so big, waiting for me to come back, so it intensified the idea of moving again, and to find a little sister for it. It must be done this year, early next year at the latest.

Recently, I will think of college when I am old. I feel so happy when I think of my roommates. It’s been a long time since we last saw each other. Time flies really fast ah, I have graduated for a year, two years, just leave school will feel, a cavity blood reported to the motherland, where there are bricks where to move. The result reality is, brick you carry, pot you carry, a healthy 120 catties handsome guy just became 160 catties greasy technology fat house.

This is my college roommates, often think about that time, but in a long time actually has not sat together to have a drink like this, far and wide, this year probably can.

Technically seems to [slow] a lot, almost every day in the screw, wind up. When I saw something I didn’t like, I tore it up and rewrote it. My gut told me I needed to do something else. I made a lot of lists. But it is also inevitable to be swept up by the environment, such as Android cold, Compose comes, Flutter up, these things will lie flat. But there is a voice in the heart Shouting, can not, must not lie down 🤧, have to follow the rhythm.

Since moving to Haidian, began to fitness, some time ago officially decided to go to the iron. Didn’t think so far, has dropped to 140, because I can’t work harder, back in 130, feeling the fitness is also a very targeted, have to think about how to eat, how much calories, this meal time to eat dinner, degree of action standard, etc., lead to big data of various kill cooked me now, taobao is reduced fat snacks, BLBL various fitness video is recommended. In reality, when you go to Hema and you see something you want to eat, you immediately look at the back, and if it’s more than 100g/ 900kJ, I’m sorry, I don’t deserve it. I really felt that I was learning how to manage my stomach instead of working out.

Talk about interesting, this year luck is also good, the result of blind buying currency rose nearly a hundred times, but the pattern is too small, buy less, plus a pile of honey operation behind, finally left a million hard money. Then turn a head to begin to buy fund, just begin quite good, estimate should pass through small 20%, the result is behind a cover in cover, take medicine to drink. Fortunately, some blood came back recently. Originally planned investment only accounted for 20-30% of the assets, now it seems to be fast exceeding, young leek generation, we can not give up. But overall still want to maintain a proportion.

Now it was afternoon, and I thought of another point and decided to write it down.

I am very afraid of death, always feel that life is too short, why people can only live a few decades? If you count it, I’m a quarter of the way through my life, and with luck, I have a few more years to go.

About today

23 years old. Any thoughts before 24?

  • Save enough for a down payment in Xi ‘an.
  • Weight back to 130(easier) and become muscular (wake up, stop dreaming)
  • Complete a parachute jump (interesting)
  • A trip to Hong Kong (probably scrapped)
  • Find a sister for Pikachu
  • Open source an interesting thing (have ideas, working on outline)
  • Making Star break 400

So first, say too much to achieve again, that not pure pure to oneself dozen chicken blood?

Thanks for reading.

It was late at night and Pikachu was already asleep. Finally, I wish me a happy 23rd birthday. I hope we can all live a long life and become what we want to be with 🙌🏻.