Shenzhen is a city that people both love and hate. It can even be said that as many people love it for its compatibility, vitality and sense that even their breath is filled with the aroma of dreams, so many people hate it for its high housing prices, hopeless resettlement, and finally exhausted youth.

In the final analysis, to love Shenzhen is to love myself who once had nothing but dreams and courage.

Yesterday evening was playing basketball with an old friend Ding Ge, he told me he was leaving Shenzhen, I was charan! Later we had a barbecue together. During the banquet, I listened to his endless remorse and reluctance in every sentence. I fell into deep meditation ~~~

First, the reason for coming

Ding Ge, when he first entered this city, it must have been 7 years ago. He came here yearning for the beauty of the big city. Since then, I have been working as a game developer in a very famous company in Shenzhen. I have become the best among my peers, which is the envy of many classmates and friends. Ding Ge at that time is really infinite scenery, as long as there is a free time, Shenzhen everywhere punch card, the window of the world, the size of meisha, Wutong Mountain… .

“Come, shenzhen people”, this slogan resounds in every corner of the city. Ding Ge feels unprecedented satisfaction, secretly swear in the heart, must take root in this.

The air was sweet…

Two, the hard work

Ding Ge at the beginning of the company, because he is a new person, many businesses need to be familiar with as soon as possible. In addition, there are too many great gods around, and they must pay 200% of their efforts to catch up with the pace of the great gods. Ding Ge feels unprecedented pressure and deep self-doubt, so overtime has become the norm.

To save a little money, Dingge rents a room in Gushu, a village in the city of Shenzhen, at the end of line 1 of the shenzhen subway and the main (mainly cheap) gathering place for many deep-floating farmers. The environmental condition of the village in the city is really not how…. One house is close to another, this kind of “hand building” and “veneer building”, when you enter the head will always be dripping water, even in a sunny day, the path between the buildings is never dry.

** has never been spelled like this. ** In order to solve the difficulties encountered in the project, A person in a dark and damp room (about 10 square meters) at 3 o ‘clock in the morning is still learning code. I left at 7:30 in the morning, and I got home almost at 11 in the evening, and so on day after day. But because of the problems encountered in the work always their own head hard work, write code for fast, always solve a bug, there is another bug, did not find the real problem, and finally have to help others to wipe his ass. In addition, ding Ge was not able to manage upward like old employees. As expected, Ding Ge was given two stars at the end of the year. Two stars in a company like his is basically a negation of your achievements in the past six months.

Dingge, who had always been diligent and worked in silence, was like a bolt from the blue, suffering from anxiety and insomnia at night. The two stars made a big difference to his career in the company. For example, colleagues who join the company without 2 stars can be promoted in normal ranks. The year-end bonus is huge, so many older employees basically quit after getting 2 stars. After all, time is also a cost, there is a saying that a place behind, behind everywhere. Of course, there are a few senior employees work hard, get 150% of the effort, to avoid the next 2 stars.

Just came to Shenzhen, in addition to the side of the classmates and friends know that they work in such a big company, there is no other way, can only continue to insist! When communicating with the direct leader, you need to pay attention to the way and method of doing things, communicate with the leader more at any time, let the leader know what you are doing, and put forward problems and difficulties in time, rather than wait until the last time, so that the leader can not avoid risks. After that, Ding Ge made great improvements in work and paid attention to communication. He not only produced output, but also made commendable achievements in other aspects.

When work slowly into the right track, work and life, basically every day is two points, the rest is to adhere to and adhere to. When I work overtime, I often forget whether it is night or day. I work under high load. I study and train on Saturday and weekend, and sometimes I play basketball at night when I am free. He seldom paid attention to things other than his work. Two years later, in 2016, shenzhen ushered in a wave of rising housing prices, and ding Ge’s rent also rose. Ding Ge always thought that the housing price in Shenzhen was so high that it would definitely fall later. When it fell, he would buy it, so he continued to wait and see.

Three, helpless to leave

After the Spring Festival, Dingge began to consider buying a house after an acquaintance and a girl became lovers. At that time, nanshan house price was 5-6W, for example, a house of 90 square meters, about 450-540W, 30% down payment, that is, 135-162W, although the salary of three years of work, is far from enough.

At home in the countryside, even smashing POTS and selling iron could not pay tens of thousands of dollars. The family could not rely on ding Ge, thinking of making more efforts, when the money was enough, he could buy it stably. Just in this year, the housing price in Shenzhen soared all the way. At the end of the year, ding Ge favorite nanshan district price, he has been left in the dust.

Ding Elder brother said, at that time actually can first baoan house, but at that time was staring at the nanshan area. After all, wages have not kept up with house prices.

19 years and the object of marriage, Ding Elder brother increasingly feel his shoulder responsibility, overtime day by day fierce, because not only to children to earn milk powder money, but also get on the bus in Shenzhen, need money.

I’ve never been this desperate. Unfortunately, when the epidemic hit in 20 years, I had a serious illness. At that time, many indicators of my body were found to be alarming, such as prostatitis, lumbar disc herniation and various problems. At that time, I was hospitalized for two weeks. Due to the epidemic, the hospital was under strict control and no outsiders were allowed to visit, so I lay alone in the cold hospital for two weeks. At that time, my heart was dying and I did not know what the meaning of life was for. It was then that I had the idea of leaving Shenzhen.

At the same time, Nanshan, Baoan house prices rose a wave, Ding Ge intends to start to play baoan new house.

At present, only new houses are below market price and can barely get on a car. After the 715 policy, Shenzhen more restrictions on housing prices, shenzhen households need 3 years to buy a house, new house purchase, 2 years to hand in the house, 3 years to prohibit selling, block many investors. Began to fully enter the new house lottery era, hit the new house, all need notary lottery, according to the lottery order to choose a room, is always thousands of people grab hundreds of suites, slim chance.

Ding Ge began to blame their fate is not good, blame their own opportunities are not good, blame their bad luck. From The beginning of August each new dish, there are Ding Elder brother to play a new figure, each time the developer housing is limited, the lottery just need and too many investors, and even there are tea costs, directly through the back door to book housing.

One side is the new house, while the second-hand house prices are climbing. Ding Elder brother completely collapsed, then baoan manhole so partial place second-hand housing 7.5 W. Ding Elder brother sleepless at night, unwilling, want to be full of dream a cavity blood came here, here for the dedication of their entire youth, now can not see any hope, long-term life.

Now old, really want to become the laggard of The Times? Slowly being eliminated by time? Ding Ge stood on the bridge, looking at the traffic under the bridge, looking at not far from a block of high-rise buildings, lit a cigarette, the smoke ring rises, the whole city is particularly beautiful, lights dim, but he is out of place with the city, the heart is very sad. In the air, Ding Ge finally decided to leave the city, to the provincial capital changsha.

Changsha also has many opportunities, there is no need to be in Shenzhen. With Ding ge’s resume and background, it’s not difficult to find a good job in Changsha. Why in this miserable life, go to Changsha can buy a xiangjiang river by the river view room. In my spare time, I will go to Juzizhoutou, go to the university town to remember my youth, go to nanmen to eat stinky tofu, go to Huangxing Pedestrian Street to drink tea and look at manshan Maple leaves in autumn. Not sweet?

Goodbye, Shenzhen! You owe me my dream, I don’t want it!

Dingge told me some of his career regrets:

1. Not having a circle of friends outside of work is a sore point in making judgments. Knowledge is only limited to do the thinking and ideas of code farmers. One track-minded. If you had figured it out earlier, at least you would not have suffered losses on key decisions and missed opportunities.

There is no sideline, only work this way, a leg to walk not far. The rate at which people can earn money from jobs can’t keep up with inflation, the rate at which house prices are on the market.

3, there is no thinking and summary of the work, the formation of summary notes.

Just need room to consider too much, think one step in place, and finally did not go to buy, should first abandon some factors, first get on the bus, get the ticket.

When the development does not go up, should jump ship. Not dead.

7. Limited technology surface, not enough to the essence of technology, such as operating system, thread relations, design ideas, algorithms, and other basic attention, so that the later technology quickly encountered bottlenecks.

Without good exercise, life is a marathon, not faster than who runs, but to see who runs far.