“Live up to the time, the creation of non-stop, this article is participating in 2021 year-end summary essay competition”
Hello, I’m Yang Chenggong.
This is my year-end review of 2021 and my five-year review.
If you think life is hard, why don’t you read my story…
About me
I’m a regular “old front end” and have been doing development for 5 1/2 years. Unlike most of you, I started with the front end in the Jquery era, when Vue was in its infancy. And at that time, there was no separation of the front and back ends, so we guys at the front end did a little DOM manipulation and threw it to the PHP guys, and they used a template, and they built a website.
In retrospect, the technology was just plain old. In the past five years, front-end technology has changed a lot. I remember when I first started working with Jquery, I was so excited and efficient. Looking back, uh… Ha ha…
Back in 2015, I just entered college and was in the prime of my youth. The 20-day military training had worn away half of my fantasies about college life. When the school officially begins, it is still very good. Our school is a provincial medical university, with beautiful women like clouds. Then our dormitory building 1,3 and 5 floors are boys, and 2,4 and 6 floors are girls.
Gradually, when the freshness of college life passed, I found that everyday courses were so boring that I had no interest at all. I wanted to find a part-time job to earn some pocket money when I had no classes. As a result, our school was in the suburb of a very suburban area. There was only one village at the foot of a mountain and there were not so many part-time jobs at all. So every day of class after class, class to play mobile phone, play computer after class, day after day.
I am a precocious person, this kind of life for a long time, I began to worry: how to do if the major can not learn practical things? What if I can’t find a job in the future? What if four precious years are wasted?
The anxiety has never gone away since it first appeared. Because everyone around is almost like this, most of the time in entertainment, abandoned learning. I was inculcated from childhood that I should go to college and become somebody, and I always thought so in my heart, but I didn’t expect the reality would be so different, and then I had a mixed emotion of panic and fear.
When people are anxious, they always actively absorb something to fill the gap in their heart. The way I did it was I spent a lot of time watching technical videos. Why watch tech videos? Because I’ve been around it since before college and I’m particularly interested in it, but on the other hand I think it’s useful, it’s a real hard skill.
The seed of this interest began in high school. At that time, I was keen on Internet cafes, but I could not play games, and I always studied some strange things. Gradually, I came into contact with some computer knowledge, and my interest increased, and I was especially devoted to learning, sitting for a few hours, at that time, I made up my mind to apply for the computer major in university.
As a result, god played a joke on me, because I am a liberal arts student, but when I applied for the examination, I did not have a computer major. To tell the truth, I was a little disheartened at that time. Since I didn’t have my favorite major in the newspaper, the rest seemed to be indifferent, so I went to medical university without any reason.
Watching tech videos was the best part of my college life. Maybe it’s anxiety driven. Every day after class, I crawl into my dorm room and watch MOOCs videos. Lesson for net has a page at the time, the left area input code, on the right side of the regional real-time return to run as a result, I was a small white one also don’t understand what the editor, while he’s reading the tutorial lesson in mu online writing code, a letter a letter type, write wrong according to the prompt to change, so actually I write this learned foundation, also wrote a bargain, the home page.
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In fact, write a cost-effective home page, my state of mind has been much better. At that time, I realized that although I didn’t major in computer, WHAT I was interested in was computer, and only computer could give me confidence and a sense of achievement. Because I’m really stupid. My mom always says I don’t know anything, I don’t know anything, and I don’t know what I can do. I also feel that THERE are not many things THAT I can do. It is a pity that I finally meet something that I am interested in and have always wanted to do.
After that, I continued to watch videos and began to understand this industry. I also added some groups and met some technical friends. They often talked about their daily technical work and what interesting things they did, which gradually made me yearn for it. The content that has a class at the same time is more and more boring, all round the classmate also is lying, the feeling of this kind of waste time is more and more intense.
Finally, I had an idea: I want to quit school
The thought startled me. I dared not tell others this idea. At night, I lay in my dorm bed after turning off the light and wondered whether it was worth it. The parents won’t agree. What about the school? I toss and turn wondering. But I was sure that if I did this, I would suffer a lot, but I would not regret it, and my heart told me that it was the right choice, but the price was too high to accept.
After some time, I went home and talked with my parents about my state at that time. Finally, I plucked up the courage to say that I wanted to leave school and do what I love. At that time, my parents had concerns, but they did not give me too much resistance. The only thing they told me was that I must think it out clearly. Adults should be responsible for their own choices.
And so, back at school, I had made up my mind. In fact, anything as long as you make up your mind to do it will be much easier. I had a talk with my counselor, who also advised me to be cautious and told me the importance of a degree and its disadvantages to my long-term development. I keep all this in mind, but I also know better what I want to do, and I can’t hold back.
Then it was time to start the formalities and take care of the rest of the chores. At the same time, the friend I had contacted in the group before said that he was recruiting people and that I had some basic knowledge, so we agreed that I would work and study in his group.
After everything was done, I set foot on the train to Beijing with my suitcase and 1000 yuan in my pocket.
Began to north drift
After arriving in Beijing, I clearly remember standing out from Beijing at that time, a piece of black pressure, living in the vast and sparsely populated Inner Mongolia said that I had never seen so many people. Very not easy to squeeze out, sat for a long time of the subway, and then sat for a long time of the bus just arrived at the destination, the bus stop signs write XX village (good guy), and then look for ah look for, and finally with the group of small brother joint.
My first day in Beijing was very impressive. The first impression is not tall building is not prosperous unexpectedly is a lot of people. The first time I took the subway, THE first meal I had was Teacher Tian’s braised pork in brown sauce (at that time, the braised chicken leg rice was only 11 yuan, now it’s at least 16 yuan).
First time to eat noodles is a friend and I sat down on double the limousine bus (bus) in the second layer, the front of the fence, see the night view and rushed to the tiananmen square, and then found a stick “authentic old Beijing noodle” brand shop in each ordered a bowl, 30 dollars, at that time really is too expensive, eat after we all said: bad, don’t eat anymore.
I met my brother for a quick meal, and then he took me apartment hunting. The house was in the village. It was one of those homestay houses, bungalow apartments, five hundred dollars a month. Our office is a few stops by bus to a slightly more upscale apartment building. Yes, we work in a residential building and go back to the village after work. You may think this is not Beijing.
It gets worse. I went to the interview when the boss is prone on the window wipe glass, look at me, throwing his rags, down ourtenant said brother to our chat, then find the clean table for a moment, ask a few questions, finally said: “the business license this week came down, tables and chairs back quickly also, next week to go to work!”
That’s how I got my first job.
Hasty, I can’t help but be hasty, as long as someone wants me. When I go to work, it may be fresh, or I can finally devote myself to it. I think it’s quite good. We are mainly engaged in the development of wechat public accounts and some management systems. As mentioned at the beginning of the article, the front and back ends are not separated. Jquery is a shuttle, and we have accumulated a lot of experience in DOM operation and mobile terminal.
To evaluate how you feel in this company, you are both poor and happy. The salary code for 2500 is still on the top. Our technical director (that is, the guy I meet) has been “empty” and our daily task is to make lunch for us (the building has a kitchen). Because usually eat just so so. Sometimes we eat a 25 yuan roast chicken on weekends, and we all have to marvel at how beautiful life is.
The feeling is that when people are poor, it’s easy to be satisfied, and a little sweetness can double the happiness. May also be that time is really love driven, every day full of morale, do not feel hard, the heart is that the day will be down in the people also, must first suffer from their willpower, their muscles and bones hungry their body skin yunyun.
It was only later that I discovered that the bigger the company, the less happy it was. It was a mystery.
Five plan
Although I was very happy in the company, I always had a big stone in my heart, which was the academic degree. When I withdrew from school, rather than dropping out, I wanted to have a plan b so that I could go back to school if it didn’t work out. However, I have a hunch that the future is mostly out of school.
This meant that I really went from being an undergraduate to a high school student. However, I am very clear that although technology is the priority in the small factory I went to at the beginning, from the perspective of personal long-term development, without a degree, I will definitely suffer a loss. Moreover, I am not reconciled to it and want to try again.
Soon after I started working, I started looking for ways to improve my degree. Learn in orgnaization of record of formal schooling later, have network education this kind of form, the country admits, learn letter net can check. Online education means learning by online video, doing homework online, and taking exams offline once a year. I think this way of learning is very suitable for me, which does not delay my work and can flexibly use my spare time.
Unfortunately, because I did not have a degree at that time, the teacher said that your starting point may be a little lower, to start from high school, high professional, a total of two stages, each phase of the shortest 2.5 years to graduate, a total of five years, it is possible to get undergraduate diploma.
Five years? I didn’t know. Five years is a long time, right? But I had no choice but to sign up. I thought the five years would be like a college do-over, but AT the same time, I also knew that I might not have the chance to work in a regular Internet company, and not have the chance to contact so many excellent people, or even have the friends who went with me all the way. Because of this, there is always a voice in my mind, always remind me to keep learning, keep exploring, find the right direction and keep working hard, otherwise a little slack may really fall behind.
At that time, the situation is indeed such, young age, no education, no technical background, no experience, light has a cavity passion, no problem with love. The starting point will be close to the ground, I can think of my only advantage, may be young.
So I thought, what can I do for five years? What is most important? How can I increase my competitiveness?
I have been thinking about these questions for a month, and I have made a plan for what I can figure out. Of course, it is not a very detailed plan, but more of a goal, a general direction. Because I like history, the first five-year plan naturally came to mind, so I took it as my “one five-year Plan”.
The ultimate goal of plan 15, of course, is to get a degree. At the same time, as much as possible to learn technology, expand technical vision, make up their own shortcomings. As my direction in the plan is to be broad first and then deep, so the learning scope is not limited to the front end. My first three years are basically see what learn what, because there is no confidence, learn a little more heart will be a little more practical. Now I think that the learning efficiency at that time is really high, maybe this is the strength of inverted force.
I am also glad that I made this plan at the beginning, so that I did not give up when I met so many difficulties later. I thought that all the experiences in the past five years could not represent my future. When I survived these five years, I would surely usher in a bright future.
And the dark 2017
To say how dark my 2017 was, it sounds like a story.
The first blow
The first company only stayed less than a year, the results of the company’s poor management, closed down, before the dissolution of the boss still owed us monthly wages.
It was the middle of winter, it was cold, it was almost New Year’s Day, and I had barely enough money left in my pocket to eat. After I lost my job, I didn’t rest. After updating my resume, I began to cast it on all platforms. I cast hundreds of copies and almost got no response. Occasionally some chat a few words, I said their own situation, also have no below.
That was the first time I knew what it felt like to be helpless. I dare not tell my family that I lost my job. If I report good news, I will not report bad news. My parents are already very worried. So all kinds of channels to find ah cast ah cast, burned in a blaze of more than half a month also have no results. I had run out of money, so I borrowed a few hundred dollars and kept looking.
When I was almost desperate, I was finally invited to an interview by a company. I was so happy that I went to Haidian from Fangshan for the interview. When I arrived, I found that the company was almost the same as the first one, with five or six employees. Also the boss face me, chat ah chat, chat is good. At that time, there was another person in the interview. The next day, the boss sent a wechat message saying that he decided to offer me an offer. I was so happy that I finally saw the bright future.
The job was secured, but there was still a problem: the company was in Haidian, and I lived in the small village of Fangshan, which was too far away. Before going to work, I went to Changping, which is near haidian, to ask about a house, which is also a village. The landlord said that the rent was 1000 yuan and the heating fee would be paid separately. I thought I was so expensive, I only have money to eat ah. I can’t. I’m just gonna hang on till I get paid.
And so came my first “highlight” moment. Have you ever experienced what it’s like to have a six-hour commute to work? I have. At that time, I went to work at 9 o ‘clock. I started from the small village of Fangshan at 6 o ‘clock every morning. After walking, bus, subway, and then walking, I just got to the company in Haidian at about 9 o ‘clock, a full three hours! Then I got off work at 6pm, walked, subway, bus, walked, and got home after 9pm.
It was the ninth day, and I went back and forth with my hat on and my hands clasped. Sometimes I walk down the village road at night, and the wind blows the trees and the lights swing. I can’t help but think, why am I so bitter. But I think of the teacher ma I admire people that year how much suffering, I just where? Then I immediately cheer up, the heart again in that sentence “the day will be a great responsibility to the people, must first suffer…” Trot home.
I persisted for 20 days, and finally it was payday. I made up my mind to rent an apartment in Changping as soon as the money arrived. My legs would be broken if I ran again. Results that day from the morning until work, also did not see wages, I was very strange to ask another colleague, he looked at me hesitated for a while, and then sighed, said the company has not paid wages for two months, I am also waiting. The boss said that he could get the money back this month, but it seems that there is no chance. I was very angry at that time, and the more I thought, the more angry, the next day the boss returned to the company, I went to the office to ask him for money, I said I had no money for dinner, think of ways to pay me wages.
Results he said now the company turnover difficulties, the outside of the people did not hair, more than I a. Why didn’t you say that when I said I was hired? He said he thought he’d get paid this month, but something happened, next month, next month. I looked at his big, fat head, and I wanted to kick him to death. I said the first one thousand always can, I really have no money to eat, he said no.
Now think about that scene is a little sad, it is their own money, but also so humble. I picked up a computer at the end of the day and never went back.
The second shot
I went home that night in a very bad mood. The first boss was two months behind on his salary, and I already thought he was very bad, but this time I was completely cheated from beginning to end. Is this society? I had run out of ammunition and food, the house in the village was overdue, I couldn’t pay back the money I owed, and I had no money for food.
It was after the New Year’s Day, and soon it was the Spring Festival. I thought of looking for a job and applying for a resume, and suddenly I felt very stressed. Why did I choose this path? My friends in the circle of friends are all about dinner, travel and love, but I am helpless and painful even eating is the problem, thinking about thinking about I want to cry.
The Spring Festival is coming, and everyone in the group is talking about going home. I really didn’t think I was going to make it. I wanted to go home. I didn’t want to suffer in this hellhole. That night I drank a bottle of beer and fell asleep.
Wake up the next day, awake a lot, think of the night before yesterday their own ideas, I shook my head, said no no, the somebody else Ma teacher suffered how much pain, I just to where? Then I went back to work on my resume. At that time still have a friend to live fengtai, my house expired to go to his that live, he goes to work during the day, I cast resume at home, went off work he still can manage me an egg fried rice, so cast a week, still have no play.
I was ready to go home and come back next year. Then in the brush QQ group, suddenly saw someone sent a recruitment information: location fangshan, bao. I thought fuck me, isn’t that just for me? Immediately added friends to chat. There is also difficult to recruit people at the end of the year, saw me ask, so let me bring resume to the interview.
When I arrived at the place, it was similar to the crowd maker space, where many companies shared an office area. I felt quite enthusiastic when I met the boss, who poured me a glass of water and gave me a paper test. After writing, another friend took me to an interview. After this two people discuss for a long time, and then say with me basically qualified, but we still have 7 days of trial post period, trial post through leave, not through leave.
Ah, can’t, the boss see me small, the boss afraid I can’t do. I thought I could do it if I could, so I said yes. For the next seven days, I stayed at a friend’s house. It was not that far from Fengtai to Fangshan. Seven days also passed very quickly, simply the boss handed over the matter I have basically completed.
Test post end that day boss and that elder brothers in the meeting room to discuss along while, finished call me to go in, say: although you test post period of the task are completed, but we after careful consideration, feel you or too small (17 years OLD I 21 years old), this post is very important, afraid you can not bear up.
I was so angry that I had a big argument with them in the conference room. I said I did what WAS assigned to me. What makes me think I can’t handle it? Then noisy ah noisy, finally the boss may also at the end of the year to recruit less than a person, say you have the word of confidence that stay first, not line say again.
And so I found my second job.
Because this is not a package, for entry, they took me to the “dormitory”. In fact, the boss rented a room with three bedrooms and one living room nearby. There were four people living there including me, one in front end, one in back end, one in ios and one in Android. Since I was the last to come, the three of them each took a bedroom, and I had only the living room.
The point is, ios was a girl. How am I gonna live in this room? And there’s no bed. Later, the three of them helped me figure out a way to put two sofas in the living room together and make a sheet to make a bed. Then we went to buy two sheets and wire, and nailed the wire together on both sides of the wall. Then we hung up the sheets, and an enclosed “small bedroom” was made.
It’s like this, but I finally have a place to live. Passed before long I accumulated a small experience: the sofa when the bed sleep is really meeting back pain. And that just coincides with the first micro channel small program, I was nest in my sofa bed to see the first, I was excited to see. In short, there is a bitter and happy bar, ok, ok.
The third strike
I stayed in this house steadily and finally had a little money, which basically solved the problem of food and clothing. This was the first “achievement” in 17 years. During this period, some things happened, such as my brother who took me in and managed my fried rice with egg, he left Beijing for the south, saying that he went to do business with his friends.
In April, he called me and told me that he had an urgent project and needed me to spare a week to help him. In fact, I don’t like it, because I have to deduct a lot of money. Did I say not remotely? He said not to have to come to the scene, and after urging several times, I am not good to refuse, because after all, people have taken me, but also the best brother at that time.
When the date is set, I’ll ask my boss for leave. My boss wouldn’t let me go, because everyone had to stop when I left. But who does not have a big or small matter, I said, the boss was reluctant to agree. Then I took the longest train ride of my life, all the way from Beijing to Nanning.
We finally met after we arrived in Nanning. He told me that the project was in another place. Then we went to the station and took a bus. It was already dark at that time. Then estimated that more than 10 o ‘clock in the evening to arrive, get off is a sea breeze, originally this is still the seaside.
When he got off the bus, he said that his roommate had already cooked dinner and was waiting for us. On the way I was quite curious, left and right look, feel this place is good, not only have the sea breeze, there are rows of coconut trees. When I got home and just opened the door, his two roommates warmly invited me to come in and said that they had waited for you for a long time. Let’s have a meal. I looked at the table full of seafood, chopsticks have not moved. At that time really a little touched, because Beijing so long has never been waiting to go home for dinner.
The two roommates were originally enthusiastic, but as soon as we talked, one of them was from the same town and the other was a senior in our university. As soon as the background was bright, they immediately became cordial. We ate and drank, and played poker. In short, we had a great time that day. They said that this place was called Beihai and there were many interesting places.
Speaking of Beihai, friends who know about it may immediately understand: I entered the largest pyramid scheme in China. But I didn’t know that at the time, and I was so unwary of my best buddy that I listened to him. When I got up the next day, he said he would take me to meet another friend to learn about the project. We walked a few blocks to a neighborhood, found another friend’s house, and knocked on the door.
A big sister opened the door, looking kind and smiling, and asked us to go in and sit down. After a few pleasantry, wayan said let’s talk about the project. I said yes. Then Wayan came to the table, pulled out a piece of paper, and asked me, “Do you know that our country has been running a secret program in the Southwest?”
I was stunned for a few seconds, and I said what? What secret project? Isn’t it an Internet project?
Wayan shook her head pompously and said just ask your friend. I turned to my brother and he said he hadn’t heard me first. Then with a stroke of the pen, wayan drew some ugly curves, and began to tell me what is the five-level three jin system, what is the capital operation…
I didn’t hear a word. The only thing I felt was anger. Because I just experienced two cheating years ago, very hate the taste of being cheated. This time I did not expect that a well-intentioned attempt to help my brother would result in such a big deception.
Being cheated by a trusted person is ten times more uncomfortable than being cheated by a stranger.
Anyway, I walked out of that room that day, and I swore, and I almost did it. My brother is also early prediction, and then opened the bitter mode, said ah we are so good brothers, how can I cheat you? But you certainly wouldn’t be here without this “white lie.” This is a lucrative project, and OF course I want to give the opportunity to the people closest to me…
Anyway, I insisted on buying a ticket back to Beijing, his soft and hard to retain. Finally, he said that he would stay for three days to inspect the project and consider it a tour. The so-called state secret project was called project 1040 Sunshine.
Next I was introduced to perhaps the most powerful form of brainwashing in MLM. He first took me to see what buildings, what places hinted at the industry. And then there were bus Tours, full of people who were looking at the project, and they talked about how they didn’t believe it at first, how they saw it with their own eyes and believed it, how they got rich after they participated in the project. Then he took me to chat with a variety of friends about their project, saying that the country’s “macro-control”, they have been misunderstood as pyramid schemes. I went to hotels, sales offices, free trade zones, all kinds of high-end people and talked about how they got rich from projects.
In a word, half of the people in this magical city are engaged in pyramid selling, the full range of brainwashing can not prevent, a variety of psychological means, hundreds of people to deal with you a, do not be confident that they will not be confused. They asked to participate in the project to pay 69,800, two years later out with 10.4 million. I went through a series of brainwashes that made me believe 70% that I could join them. But my headache was that I didn’t have nearly $70,000, or I might have stayed and worked with them.
Finally, I was dragged to stay for ten days, I said I believe, but I really have no money, my family has no money. Finally, they came to a big trick, took me to some club, while a few big men with big gold chains came in, and then let me bite their gold chains is true or not, also said that they what annual income tens of millions, several houses, are big bosses.
I was so scared, these guys were so aggressive, I couldn’t say anything, but there was no money. They all kinds of ways even soft with hard “retain” me for a long time let me pay money to join the club, the last estimate also see that I really have no money, let me go.
When I came out, I was reluctant to part with my brothers to say goodbye, and then on the train back to Beijing.
The fourth strike
After returning to Beijing, I felt more and more wrong because I was out of this environment. Then I checked online and gradually learned about their routines and the horrors of this type of Southern pyramid scheme.
It turned out that before I went there, my brothers had given my information to their superiors, and then they found people who had the same relationship with me from tens of thousands of pyramid sellers in Beihai, and arranged them to meet me step by step, so that I gradually removed my guard and willingly entered the bureau.
Unfortunately, my buddy didn’t have my luck. He was stuck in there for over two years, lost his skills, and lost a lot of money. And I know friends who took their parents and sisters, and then I don’t know what happened.
After returning to Beijing, I spent several months in a relatively smooth way. During this period, the project was always in a hurry but could not be improved, and overtime work became common. Later, a new friend in the dormitory, the sofa was changed into a bunk, AND I was finally able to sleep in the bed.
I thought the 17-year wave was over, but in September, I received a call from my family saying that they had something to ask me to come back. I don’t want to go into all the details, but when I got back, my dad died, and the house was a mess.
I knew my family needed me the most right now, so as soon as things were over here, I offered to leave. When I left, I didn’t have time to take things with me. Later, my roommate helped me put important things in a box and sent them back to my hometown.
At this point, my north drift career officially announced the end.
Looking back on the recent two years of drifting north experience, I never seem to feel the temperature of Beijing except cold and merciless.
Sometimes I wonder what this experience has brought to me, apart from the realization that life is hard and the heart is dark, perhaps it has given me the ability to fight well beyond my age. I would like to say that maybe this is the Beijing of ordinary people, there is no carnival, bustling in the eyes, only the stars and the moon, crawling and rolling.
If it hadn’t been for the first few blows, I might have just cracked when it came to my dad. Maybe this is the arrangement of god, it did not give you a sudden blow, but a little bit of weight, just let you may carry down.
After a string of blows in 2017, I feel as if nothing can bring me down. Even if I did, with the self-healing powers I’ve developed over the years, it wouldn’t hurt me much. So that later when I met people around me, I thought it was ok. I could solve it by grit my teeth.
And my career. It’s more than a job to me. Because experienced hardships, so cherish, never give up.
Steady and unbroken life
After returning to my hometown, I stayed with my mother for about a month, after everything was settled at home, I began to look for a job. It was relatively easy to find a decent job with a small team and a salary increase of 50% because the technology was good and the degree was not valued in my hometown.
The most important thing in this family is that Jquery has been refactored with Vue and my tech stack has been upgraded. At the same time, IT was the first time I tried to separate the front and back ends, and I applied Node.js + Mongodb in the production environment for the first time.
The owner of the company was very kind to me. He was a very kind and energetic old man. Everyone respected him as teacher. We spent nearly one year to do a large project from zero to one and passed the acceptance. To be honest, I felt a sense of achievement.
The whole 18 years have been spent in a relatively stable, calm and gentle pace, and the biggest feeling is that work and life are orderly. You go to work during the week, and then you eat and drink with your friends. On weekends, I go home to stay with my mother, go shopping and have dinner together, and I always relax with my family.
18 years was the end of my suspension, and I went back to the school to consult my teacher about resuming my studies. The teacher said that the resumption of school must start from freshman year. By this time, my classmates were already in their junior year, which meant that I would have to repeat it for another four years. Can’t I just go with the same squad? The teacher said no. As I expected, I really missed out on school.
The next is to deal with the dropout procedures, the end of this come and go, let me worry about personal gains and losses, entangled in the university.
At the beginning of 2019, the first happy event was that I finally finished my junior college education and got my graduation certificate. I finally had a degree!
I went to Xi ‘an in March, met some interesting people and did some exciting things there. For example, a few of our friends rushed to the bus and subway in Xi ‘an to give a speech. We stopped there and started talking at the top of our lungs. Because I had mild social fear and was very afraid of speaking in public, we looked at each passenger directly and greeted them with a smile. Finally, everyone clapped from the heart, which really encouraged us.
Now in retrospect, although not necessarily have that courage, but at least have done brave things.
There is a teacher taught me a lot of truth, one of which is: life only do one thing, life only love one person, so far is my life motto.
In the months that followed, family and work were mostly back on track. My mother has a better living environment, my sister takes care of her; The company’s technology tends to be basically stable, with small breakthroughs but no major upgrades, and I have not significantly improved for a long time. I think it’s time to move on.
In August, I applied to leave. After a period of rest, I packed my bags and boarded the Beijing train again.
That’s right, Beijing, here I go again.
The second north drift
The second time north drift, Beijing seems to finally put down its arrogant posture, began to accept me.
After arriving in Beijing, I got three offers after several rounds of preparation and interview. Finally, I chose a small program + React technology Stack company. Because these two pieces I don’t have much actual combat experience, just to supplement the technical shortcomings.
This time in Beijing, summed up, the work level is a relatively large span of promotion:
- Salaries have tripled
- Nine to six, double break
- Half-hour commute
- Finally, we have five insurances and one housing fund
There are also some changes in lifestyle:
- Wake up naturally before 7 a.m., without an alarm clock
- Recite English words by subway
- Keep running and swimming
At the same time, the weekend life gradually enriched. In my spare time, I will go to various museums, cultural and historical scenic spots, as well as parks and night scenes that I like. There are so many interesting places in Beijing.
At the end of 2019, there was an outbreak that no one thought would last until 2021.
2020 is a relatively stable year with no major changes. For our work, we connected Flutter to cross-end applications and also did some automation, which was a new experiment in addition to the front-end.
It is worth mentioning that the National Day seven days suddenly want to go outside, and then bought a plane ticket. On the first day, I met my friend in Tianjin and then went straight to Shanghai. During the day, I visited Chenghuang Temple, ate crab roe buns for the first time, and then climbed to the top of Shanghai to overlook the Huangpu River. At night, I went to the Bund and was lucky to have a light show, so I experienced the beauty of the night scenery of the Magic City.
Later, I also went to Hangzhou, climbed feilai Peak, worshiped Lingyin Temple, also went to the West Lake, only to know that the Original West Lake is not entrance fee haha.
My last stop was Wuzhen, where I had all my fantasies about jiangnan water towns. The only regret is that there were too many people at that time, so I didn’t take the paddle boat. I will definitely go there again if I have a chance.
By the end of 2020, for one reason or another, the relationship with the company had come to an end. I stood guard to the last working day, when leaving did not say with everyone, in short, thanks to everyone I met.
The 2021 milestone
Originally is to write 2021 year-end summary, the result writes writes five years summary. Because this is a really big year for me, I’ve been thinking about writing this long story.
In 2016, I made the five-year plan, giving myself a five-year growth period, and 2021 is the last year.
This year is the last year of the five-year Plan, just in the last year of undergraduate study, so the most important thing this year is to graduate successfully. At the beginning of the year, I had a postgraduate entrance examination plan. I wanted to graduate this year. If I could smoothly join up with my postgraduate students. Then I went through planning, selected a college incomplete, ready to bo.
So when it came time to look for a job in 2012, all plans gave way to preparing for the exam. When choosing a company, I considered the proximity to the school, early work hours, double holidays, time to prepare for exams and review, etc. For this reason, I also rejected an offer of 35K.
And so far, regrettably, the plan has failed. The first month was pretty hectic. In fact, work + commuting + preparing for exams caused my brain to strain, and I ended up doing nothing. Therefore, I focused on my work and graduation preparation, and the matter of the postgraduate entrance examination gradually fell behind.
The first hurdle to graduation is the national examination, computer and English, fail to graduate. I’m ok with computer, but I still need to concentrate on My English. So when I have time to brush the words, do reading, and then reviewed a wave of high school cloze, there are highlights of the composition sentence pattern back a lot, in short, all aspects of preparation, try to do it safely.
Half a month after the results came down, both qualified, good luck ~
The second hurdle is degree English. Unified examination only issued a diploma, if you want to take a degree certificate must pass degree English. Degree English is said to be three and a half level, a little easier than four English, but for me this perennial do not take the exam or not a small difficulty. So there is no way to another shock, recite words, brush reading comprehension, brush grammar…
As a result, I did not expect that degree English registration day, because of the ghost logic of that broken website, led to my point when the white wait for a minute of countdown, the results of the time has been reported full, almost gave me angry to death.
After coming down, I asked the teacher how to do, the teacher said only next year to sign up. I said I would graduate next year, the teacher said that deferred graduation, I…
This is a huge pit, prepared for so long, did not expect in the registration of this overturned. After I prepared for the psychological, the worst not degree certificate.
Results a month later, the official website of the school suddenly issued a new policy, the unified test of English 85 points above the exemption of degree English. I hurried to see my results, just 85 points, ha ha ha ha ha, then I was very happy.
In fact, this matter also gives me some feelings. If I take an examination of English, like the teacher said in the video, “long live pass”, “over 60 will win”, if I had this mentality, instead of saying that a good answer to the paper, maybe this time I really did not have the degree certificate. In short, it is serious and practical work, work hard, the critical moment god will help you.
The third hurdle is the thesis. The thesis is a troublesome matter, SO I chose a classic topic: the design and implementation of hotel room reservation system. Not too brilliant, but not too fallible either. Anyway, it changed a few pages, and finally passed.
The fourth hurdle is the defense. We use is online Tencent conference defense, the first to build a QQ group, defense that line up to call into the meeting, we behind the people have to panic dead. The thesis defense requires two minutes to finish speaking, I think two minutes should be able to finish speaking. When queuing, fortunately, I recorded and simulated it, and the result was 7 minutes. Isn’t this the end? Finally it was cut down to two minutes.
Two weeks later, the grades were released and they passed.
So far, the task of undergraduate course phase is completed completely, waiting to send graduation card and degree card!
At the same time, the ultimate goal of the plan was achieved. Looking back over the years, I think it’s about 85% done. 70% were planned and 15% were serendipity. Generally speaking, they are basically satisfied.
What can we learn from life in 2021? First of all, I learned to skateboard. Although I was still very good at skateboarding, I gained a new skill. And this skill I will always play, look forward to become a master one day.
This year, we renovated our house, so mom can finally live in a new house.
In the middle of the year, I discussed with my roommates, what kind of music interests should I cultivate? He got a violin and I got a flute. I played it for a while. I haven’t touched it for two months now.
One of the biggest surprises of this year is that I suddenly realized I needed to export from October and started writing articles with Denver and Denver. Also wrote before, but is the nature of the notes some more, did not think of the overall output of what.
Up to now, I have produced 8 articles with more than 5W words in three months, and the number of sifu readers has exceeded 5K +, with 238 likes in total. Every article has been forwarded by The official weibo account of Sifu, and has been listed on the List of Sifu for many times. When I wrote this, I also took a look at the list, which is still the column contribution list.
The data of nuggets is similar, read 3W +, 832 likes, level Lv3, one of the front end architect’s Git skills, how many success stories do you have? With 400+ likes and 1.4W reading, it’s a blast.
The above data will lead directly to reader feedback. For example, which technical points are more attractive to readers, look at the reading data; Which is high quality, see the ratio of reading to likes; How to write the title can control the balance between “novelty” and “clicker”, which are accumulated in the writing process.
Of course. The biggest benefit of a good article is to help them sort out the knowledge structure, check the omissions and fill in the gaps, and build the knowledge system.
Besides that, the biggest surprise for me was that I got to know some real bigwigs through writing. We have strong technical strength and strong desire to share, and we can get twice the result with half the effort when communicating, which is another channel for rapid learning and improvement.
2021 is just the beginning, 2022 will be more intensive output.
There is also a feeling
Thinking back on the weird experiences of the past five years, unlike most people, sometimes talking about things that people don’t understand, let alone empathize with. But I also do have some feelings, incidentally write down.
About Lifelong Learning
When I was in school, I always thought that learning was only for students. After I finished the college entrance examination or joined the job, I would no longer have to study. I could apply what I learned on campus to my work.
But that’s not the case. The IT industry has very high requirements for learning ability, especially in the front end, where new technologies emerge in endlessly and a wave of trends every year. Don’t work? You could be out in two years.
Before my way of learning is like this: encounter a problem, first go to Baidu, a little advanced Google, and then find ah find, find a variety of solutions, and then in my code interview, generally try a few, there is always one can solve the problem, I will write down this method.
As the problems became more and more complex, the efficiency of solving them became less and less. At that time, I wondered why other people had so many solutions to their problems, while I had to pick up ready-made solutions or rely on experience to solve problems.
In fact, it’s more of a record than a study. What is real learning? I think there are two key words, one is initiative, the other is thinking.
Initiative means you want to take the initiative to acquire knowledge, not to encounter problems to think about learning. The premise is that you have a map of your knowledge structure, where you are missing and where you need to add, so that learning can be directed and your initiative can be an effective supplement.
As for thinking, there was an ancient saying: “Learning without thought is labor lost; thought without learning is perilous.” This saying is so true. Thinking is, why are you doing this? What problem would that solve? That’s the basic logic, and if you can’t figure it out, it’s learning for learning’s sake.
Have the ability to learn, but also to understand a concept, called lifelong learning.
One thing I’ve discovered in recent years is that “everything can be learned”. Not only hard skills, but soft skills like communication and love can be learned. People will encounter all kinds of problems in this life, no matter what the confusion, you should know that there is always a bright way, that is to learn.
On long-termism
After five years, I have unconsciously become a person who considers himself a long-termism. I find that a lot of things can not be rushed, one year does not mean that you do not work, does not mean that this thing does not work. However, in the current fast-paced social environment, especially the super-fast pace of first-tier cities, failure to reflect short-term benefits will cause us to fall into great anxiety, which I have experienced deeply.
But calm down and think carefully, if because of your past, knowledge, cognition, ability of one or more, is far from competing with others, what is the use of anxiety? Anxiety comes from wanting more when you don’t have enough.
Since the current competitiveness is not enough, it is better to be down-to-earth, look to the future, cultivate their competitiveness two years later, three years later, accumulate steadily, another day is not lost. The most afraid is to regret the past, complain that they did not have a good father, did not catch a good time, and then choose to lie down.
I’ve done a lot of things in five years that I’ve never done before. I have fears that I haven’t been able to overcome, limitations that I haven’t been able to overcome in five years. But I do not know whether it is because of old age, I feel like their mentality slowly gentle. Accept your ordinariness, give yourself some time, and focus on what you can do right now. As for the others…
“Life is a long journey. What’s five more years?”
2022 outlook
In 2022, tomorrow, I will be 26. For me, 2022 is the first year of the second Five-Year Plan and a fresh start.
About myself, the New Year will continue to root in the community, make a plan:
- Output original text without water 20W words
- The Nuggets rushed to Lv5
- Do an open source project
- Write a gold digger booklet
About the team:
- Manage your small team, try to make everyone more efficient and less overtime
- Implement a weekly technology sharing meeting
- Continue to improve the front-end infrastructure, the standard of large factories
You have to trust the light
I loved Ultraman when I was in high school, and the first time I saw a big theatrical movie was Shiloh Ultraman: Belial Galactic Empire. At that time, I used 512 Megabyte memory card. On weekends, I plugged in a card reader to download movies and watched them in my dorm.
In the first year of my work in Fangshan, I suddenly saw a news pop up one day, which said that a huge statue of Ultraman and monster had been built next to the Bird’s Nest. Then I went to the Olympic Park that weekend to see it and took a picture:
The next generation of Round Valley series is more and more, from Galaxy, Vickery, Ax, to Obu, Jade, Rob, Tygar, and today’s update of Terika, I’ve followed almost every one of them.
May be a lot of people think, this is a child only see things, naive, how old are you still see? I don’t know why I love to watch it, but it may be that every time when human beings are about to be defeated by darkness and fall into despair, there are always people with hope and insist on not giving up until the last moment, so light appears and Ultraman appears.
The Light of Otter, it’s more of a faith, a hope.
It seems that in April, Altman in the douyin suddenly became popular again, I just know, there are so many adults also like Altman. These people may be too busy to make ends meet, but there is always a light shining in their heart in the face of darkness and depression, as strength and hope to carry them forward.
Hence the following joke:
- Q: what’s the easiest way to ruin a guy?
- A. There is no Ultraman in this world.
Here, to all of you who live in turbulent waters and believe in light:
Mountains and rivers doubt no way, and a village.
Long wind and waves will sometimes, straight sail to the sea.