In the middle of 2018, DUE to depression and suicide behavior, I decided to resign from Jinan and return to my hometown. I had planned to wait until the house expired, but unexpectedly, the company reduced my salary by 500 yuan for the second time. I don’t know if I can live in Jinan without 500 yuan. I just really wanted to go, so I offered to resign, not in a good way, but at least everyone was decent, and the company promised me performance that I couldn’t get, and a few months later I got half of what I was supposed to get. So I went home. Back to Rizhao to find a lot of programmers of the company, RIzhao I only let me Boss direct hire on the recruitment AD brush to the low place. Throw away the line and sell as well as never message. I talked about a few. They are very interesting to me. Some people said they would give me a project and I would be hired when I finished writing the project; some said they would give me the reverse, and I would be qualified if I came out of the reverse; some made great efforts to lower the salary when we first met, and FINALLY I was hired at 3,500 yuan. I took a single rest and went on duty. I had to clean the hall and toilets on the first floor every Friday. On the first day, I was in charge of uploading documents to the government. It took about 30 minutes to upload a Word, so I spent Saturday and Sunday in front of the computer screen. Over the next 20 days I didn’t write a code, is mixed to the salary, in fact I was happy, at least no one will be in front of the company research and development of all said I was a lack of love sb, my mother did not like the job I have now, but she didn’t say, finally she accidentally revealed an out when a security that is the price, this sentence hurt me again, I understand this is not my mother’s fault, it’s my fault, so I started looking for a job, a written WeChat group-sent message, group of friends to 8 k, I know it is grey, did not dare to, and the company just the two of us, a person for block chain to find me WeChat I add him, he was to report the WeChat, I dared not go to, have personal said to me, When I heard that I wanted 6k, I asked if I could get less, and I knew it was over. No one would want C++, which is Java, or outsourcing. Unfortunately, C++ could not get into outsourcing, but Java could. I went to a job all day and I left because the computer screen was the old paunchy screen and it was too dazzling. There is an e-commerce company, the technology said C++ can definitely write Java, but it takes some time to transfer, hr did not want to spend time to transfer, I was rejected. Two or three months, I searched almost all sunlight similar companies, some do not back to news, sometimes ask me what is Java timer, some ask me name some of the industry the company name, some asked all don’t ask, you have to, it is less money, some even said, come you every Saturday, I give you 5000 dollars a year, I don’t know what is my request is too high, Or is there really something wrong with these companies? Anyhow I didn’t find buyers, you may have guessed the end of the story I withdrew from the business, you might want to know why I go to, the imagination to yourself, I could buy a car, must buy a house, can I really when the security guard, anyway I don’t deal with the issue of stack, recorded in the desktop screen, nor do not do file backup, U disk encryption. That’s my story, the story of a coward who got punched and cried on his knees.