Winter in Zhengzhou is really very cold; At five o ‘clock in the morning, you can hear the voices of people getting up early, washing their faces and brushing their teeth in dormitory 107 of Building 3. “Hurry up, hurry up, and catch the bus at 6:03,” my roommate urged. The water in the bathroom was freezing and I could feel the chill in my crotch. A pack up, their backpacks rushed to the school 500 meters at the bus station 🚌.
“Still difference 10 minutes, ambulate ambulate, cold dead, this driver thief slow, hurry up!” I stood there smelling my breath. It was still gray, and we looked like black heroes.
It took us about a minute to get to a bus stop near a big park on the South Third Ring Road, and we had to change. Looking at the tall buildings in the distance, looking at more than 7 o ‘clock still in the bed dream of the people, and then look at us this two breakfast have no time to eat to go out of the people; Envy the rich house and car life, “when we can also have a place in this place, when we can live in a foreign house, when we are not so busy?” “, I stood on the right side of my roommate looking into the distance of the community “beautiful mountains and rivers” sigh.
After three stations we came to the company downstairs, “aunt, two bowls of hu spicy soup, four big steamed stuffed bun, trouble fast,” I said to the aunt in a hurry.
Give a friend to say: “this bowl really many, to some vinegar, to some sesame oil, nourishing ah. Yang Yang, how do you feel about this bun? Is it delicious?” . I giggled at him. “Without further ado, thief is delicious, thief is good to drink, the key is cheap. Our salary of 2,500 yuan a month is just enough to live on.”
We arrived at the company in the first place in the morning. I have a habit that I don’t like to be late. As long as IT is for class, I always go back early.
The boss also followed early: “Everybody get ready, we have a meeting at 8:30 on time, discuss the next thing to do. After the meeting, the technical manager will call the two newcomers to see how the project is arranged. “I heard the boss talking about the meeting in the distance.
After all, it was the first time for so many people to have a meeting together, and we had to give a speech and introduce ourselves. I was so nervous that I panicked and stumbled over my words.” Take it easy. We’re all colleagues here. Don’t be so nervous.
I spent a long day talking to the manager, THE UI, the front end (oh, no, the front end is us) about how the site should be divided, using some open source framework to set templates. We were like little soldiers on the battlefield. We did what they told us to do.
“Should we go now or later, or should we work overtime? “I chat with my roommates privately on wechat.
“Damn it, wait a minute, I don’t understand the loop of the frame, the data hasn’t been loaded yet,” and so we worked half an hour overtime.
Before I knew it, I was at the bus stop where the second bus changed. I said you can move a little brain, how so simple question also ask me, didn’t see me also a lot of things, don’t always ask to ask, make me can’t do. You can use your brain more, draw a picture, write a write, run, do not stupid like XXX, ok? “My roommates made fun of me. At that time, I really did not know how to answer, kept my head down, to tell the truth, I did not want to do so.
On the bus back to school, I kept looking out the window: “Am I really such a pain in the ass? I really rubbish, what also can’t, is to give others drag back, I am not suitable to do this line, is my brain really wrong? “And so I kept running through my mind.
This continued for nearly a month, writing code is still slower than others, always can not come up with problems, always need others to guide the maze. At this moment, I already feel that I am a useless person, what all can’t happy color.
I do not know when alone became my habit, used to sit on the playground in a daze; Used to staring at books in a daze; Get used to all kinds of habits.
“I know that people have complaints about me and want to get rid of me, without saying so directly, but I know it. “, this also has me below unwilling to struggle.
Sitting in my dorm room, looking at my computer, looking at code.” Yang Yang, go to dinner, wait for the playground running? “The other computer wizard in the dormitory called me.
Walking together on the playground, men and women, couples holding hands, cuddling, I really want to confirm with the god, we are here for dinner, or dog food. We went jogging together and I told him how I was doing.” You silly force, what is not just go out to work, haven’t graduated, on this already depressed, Lao Tze still waiting for you to take salary to invite me to eat big dish chicken? What’s the big deal? What kind of god doesn’t start with shit? You call that shit? Big stupid force “, big god is a scolding to me.
I suddenly stood still, ashamed. “Yes, every great god does not start from scum, where born is a genius.”
Lying in bed, counting sheep one by one, in my mind again and again debugging the afternoon did not complete the code…..
To be continued……