In 2003, I opened Internet Explorer for the first time, oh, I was disappointed, this is the Internet, this is the web. It seemed like nothing shocking happened, but BEFORE that, I had been exposed to computers at a very early age, but I had never used them for PC games, never for the Internet, and that was the reality at that time.
May be a game of illusion, I used to think the Internet should be like red alert, xianjian, have a nice figure, funny story, but when I open the IE, I’m really disappointed, he is a plane, a 2 d window page, I didn’t even know baidu, open after a few minutes I don’t know what to do, until I closed the browser.
Yes, that was my first acquaintance with the Internet, in the corner of a small Internet cafe with only a few seats. Since then, in my junior and senior high school life, all my concepts of the Internet are games, from legendary private server, perfect world, and finally to world of Warcraft. I know netease because I played fantasy Westward Journey, legend, know Baidu because to search, know Tencent because everyone is talking about QQ, until I read university in 2008, I seem to know Taobao.
The first time I’ve heard of taobao seems to come from my cousin and cousin, at that time, they have graduated, they are discussing future study c # or Java, I know he learn major is electronic commerce, at one point I don’t understand what is electronic commerce, at least, I think, and perhaps most agree that the concept of e-commerce is too high, So high-end I can’t figure out what he does. Like mentioned now AR, VR, machine learning, neural network, everyone seems to have some concepts, oh they have offline experience shop, recommend mechanism of today’s headlines, Google go defeated the world champion, the cognition of the world we naturally as if from life you can really sense the existence of things, and those who do you know the tall nouns, I’m sorry. I really don’t understand what it is.
When the cloud first came up, I can’t remember what it was, but I remember I’d been working for a while, I’d been writing code for a while, and I didn’t understand the cloud at all. I remember watching a program called Titian Brothers, which invited a group of experts from Baidu. Wang Han asked an engineer from Baidu what cloud is on earth. As a result, I now think the programmer was supposed to be funny. He said, “When you are old, you can look at your pictures on the cloud… . “He used several comparisons, what can you do with the cloud when you are old. The details I already don’t remember clearly, but as a programmer, then I, ordinary people is something most people know that cloud, I think he is a spy baidu, he should have can be a very simple and clear introduction to cloud is something for everyone, perhaps, when he doesn’t know what is cloud, that up to now, I can only remember the words you can XXX when you are old and his head marked senior expert.
I once felt that I was a person who had traveled back from the future, because in the past 10 years, I had been dreaming constantly, and the plot in my dream would happen in the reality in a few days, which made me very confused. I used to dream about the final exam, and the scene seemed etched in my mind, I remember the scene very clearly, until I sat down in my seat I realized that I had experienced, but I still can’t recall what the exam questions were. I was so miserable that I ended up with a lower average score.
When it comes to grades, IN the previous nine years of compulsory education, I should be 90% of the ordinary players. I am someone else’s child, playing every day, and then my grades are in a mess. This problem has been bothering me until now. I remember when I was in grade three, I was sitting in my seat looking out the window at a couple in the attic making love. The teacher called me up to answer the question. I said I didn’t know because I didn’t see or listen to what he said. I’m just using this example to show you that most of the time I sleepwalk in class, but on those tests I did, and somehow someone told me to take A for this one and B for this one.
Upon examination that day, I saw a dragon cartoon to see in the morning, a night didn’t sleep well, the whole people are very excited, I remember that day with a lot of rain, the outside students call I finished writing to give them the answer, finish the maths problem for half an hour, not inspection, the final title design for 10 minutes, found, don’t give up, I got it in go, was thinking about to throw the answer, Found the exam hall is full of invigilators, gave up. Finally mathematics result I now remember 103 points, a full score of 120 points, is a front. Invincible! With a total score of 610, I got 542 in the exam. I almost finished and handed in the paper in half of the time. I didn’t think about checking, because there seemed to be no mistake.
High school story do not want to say, too miserable, because of a game, at that time XIANjian I remember too hot, after Liu Yifei endorsement of the perfect world, I am addicted to. At night, I secretly went out to play games all night. At that time, I could say that I had played all the games on the table of Internet cafes.
Now I clearly remember the teacher in charge and I said a word, heart such as plain horse, a put hard to accept. Yeah, I know what he means. You’re a piece of shit now. But so what, so what? Now I know. What do you say. Fault! Regret it? Saying you don’t regret is fart, but it doesn’t help.
A lot of talk, as if in high school I know what is prose, is this kind of, no clue, heart, where to write. The theme? What is the topic of the passage? Oh, yes, I suddenly read a book, Computers: A History. All of a sudden, I thought of this, and I wrote it here.
All ignorance of the past, you need to use the present and the future to repay the cost of several times. Time is the world’s straightest man, he can not bend, not to turn. This is so fucking sad.
2008 university, should be the best time, at that time do Taobao, do e-commerce people are now hair, of course, the premise is that you have to have a brain, you have to read a book, understand the computer, otherwise you will not use the computer. In 2003, when my brother went to college, he picked up a Lenovo casually, without looking at the configuration, it should be 256M memory, 8000+ soft girl. When I went to university in 2008, LENOVO, 5K+ computer, however, this computer only accompanied me for 3 years of world of Warcraft, as well as 10 full grade number, full occupation system bully.
I hung the first should be a sport, I clearly remember, because one is splits, I didn’t move, I stood and looked at the teacher, you his mama you split a try, and I walked to the finish line is the final 800 meters, because looks very diao, everyone is waiting for me in the end, until finally can not stand the teacher said.
In 2011, the school required all the students to go to training, because they cooperated with training institutions, how much money they earned, I don’t know, maybe for the employment rate, the school’s pains, anyway, at least for me at that time, is a good thing, because I really don’t know what I can do after graduation. Maybe a wow account could sell for a few thousand bucks?
From June to October 2011, I probably worked harder than any other three months in my life, going to bed after 1 a.m. and getting up before 6 a.m. In the first class, the teacher said “Hello World” first. The others were laughing, but I looked like an idiot. What the hell? Like I’m the only one special? Later I know, some of them are learning very well, when the school to help the teacher have a class, but you come to training why? Now I might guess that I’m not confident enough, but I’m still a student after all, and it’s always good to be able to enter society later, unless my family is really struggling to make money at work. News because of the graduate thesis of the suicide, think of it, I seem to feel something, but there seems to be something wrong. You just feel bad all of a sudden.
People, as is more fragile than the other animals, was bitten by a dog injection is dead, not a fall off the skin is likely to be dead, so big in my life really not easy, so I often have the idea of heart will think, 30 in front of the multistage leveling I too bitter, but hasn’t arrived yet I can go to slash sifang new village, is dead, too not cost-effective.
Until 12 years, more than a year, the salary was from 2000 to 2500 to 4200, and then he was honorably fired. Well, if Wukong looked carefully here, he knew the name of the company.
And the boss said to me, I know this is your first job, it’s probably going to hit you hard, and blah, blah, blah. But MY heart was very happy at that time, I think the other leaders are very good to me, only a fool every night to sleep the voice of the nose so that everyone can not sleep, and then I think his level is too average, until today I still think so.
I am grateful to other leaders. I am deeply impressed by one sentence they said to me: your psychological age is too young. It seemed so. I was in my early 20s, but I had been working for almost a year, and I didn’t even realize I was a social person.
Really, that day off work when walking on the road, I seem to suddenly understand a lot, chaos of the brain seems suddenly distinct, I understand, this is growth, he came so suddenly, all his mother don’t say hello to me, so LET me too have no face, because it is not generally hit will wake up? Naruto, for example, won’t do anything until he’s dead, will he? Why can’t doudizhu start beating the king? Headstrong! Hem.
Since then, the development seems to be quite smooth, in a small company to do the technical director, every day to work fish, daze, mixed with the day, seems to take not low wages mixed is also good. Later, there were many factors, in short, I felt that I had some money -> left Shanghai -> went home -> had no money -> came back again, life ah, too his mother difficult.
Walk of time, took a picture to the hongqiao, tell oneself, later kill all don’t come to this silly force place, come again I his mother is a dog. Oh, it smells good.
Maybe when I was studying, your mother would say why don’t you put on weight and eat more? I laughed every time I saw this scene. Don’t worry, you will gain weight in a year. Society is the best teacher, too true, he no matter you are male or female, small or big, he will really teach you how to be a man. No matter how rebellious people are, he will give you a solid, tell you that young people, society, is not so easy to mix.
Maybe I was supposed to be a fucking straight guy like this guy Time, and I turned out to be a fucking straight guy.
My family is not rich, but at least I really did not suffer anything, so that my previous years seemed heartless, now it seems that it is really sad, parents give you the best life they can do, so that you may not be like yourself. I will always think, my child, really, your life will not be so smooth, I allow you not a straight line, but the pain to eat, to do, to understand, you must understand as soon as possible, although it seems cruel, but it is really will be your parents to make the best choice for you.
Reading this thing, I have never really thought about and do not have much contact with people who are not good readers, should say, really do not understand how to read this thing. All the time, although high school disabled, but the top of the students, those schools. It seems that taking an undergraduate course should be something you can do with your eyes closed, so of course. But after contacting the people next to me, I found, really, there are a lot of people, they can’t read at all, self-learning ability ≈0.
I suddenly found a problem, is wang Xing said that China’s undergraduate rate is only 4%? It’s about that number, which means there are really few people. Take the programmer industry for example, you can hardly see those who are not good at school, such as college, but the proportion is very small, but they also have one thing, that is, people with self-learning ability, in fact, or smart.
I could not define what is a wise man, but at least, I think, should be a person with ability to study independently, if you are really stupid, at least, you should have other qualities, such as persistence, perseverance, endure hardship, if you are neither intelligent, nor can the quality, I almost think you this man is a waste, really, you are a waste, don’t doubt.
For example, if you’ve never done anything on your own in your entire life, I think you should think about it and reflect on it. In my 20, 30 years of my life, have I ever done one little thing? Even if you go to a summer job, to a construction site to move bricks, without thinking, even a single thing, have you ever done?
People, there’s got to be something about them that allows you to at least survive, because it’s so hard to survive in this world right now.
You are not smart, also can not bear hardships, also can not insist on learning, really, I can hardly imagine what you should do in the future? Shouldn’t programming and moving bricks have hands? Once, no. 10 times, would you? Not that you won’t, but that you chickened out. Think it’s too hard, yeah, it’s too hard, and it’s gonna get harder, because you’re setting yourself up for hell.
I once saw a very impressive video in Douyin. The father asked his son, “Is it hard to move bricks?” “Hard work,” said the son. Dad said, know hard good, I just want to let you understand, reading can not bring you anything, he just let you have the opportunity to choose. I guess, especially someone who’s been crap for years like me.
The Chinese way of education has produced so many tragedies, I still think so. Chinese parents always think that they are sorry for their children and do not give them the best conditions. They should not lose at the starting line when they are young. Too many children have been raised disabled, greenhouse flowers, a little after the wind and rain, more disabled.
Even many people think parents owe them, you gave birth to me, raise me, give me the best, that is all due. Because you’re my mom and dad.
Well, that’s what education does. I think it’s hard for a normal person to think like that. Too fucking straight, straight I feel very uncomfortable in my heart. What can you say? What else can you say?
Life should not be so pessimistic, it should be full of sunshine and hope.
In the past, you didn’t try, so now you’re like this.
Over the years, the thought of these unpleasant things always seemed so pessimistic that I seemed to be full of doubts about the world, and the sense of crisis seemed to suffocate me.
As if, the public seems to be a good choice, for me this kind of lazy, as if how also can’t learn to clip video. I remember reading the time to see Han Han, the teacher asked Han Han how do you live after graduation? How do you feed yourself? Han Han said lightly: write a book. At that time, I thought teachers were crazy, and what the fuck is that weird idea?
The truth seems to tell us that you are all mediocrities. geniuses seem to have a halo from the very beginning, they shine, but only they can see.
We are just some ordinary people. The books and poems we have read since childhood tell us that life should come back when thousands of pieces of gold are gone. Li Bai, you have made students suffer.
Whenever I think about it now, I have to keep telling myself, be realistic, screw romanticism, your future shouldn’t be avenging society in this way.
I read a novel, The Perfect Age of Rebirth, which was reborn in 2001, the beginning of the Internet. How does a programmer change the world?
It’s like millions of people are saying, if I had been born at that time, what if? People always habitually miss the past time, but do not know the value of the world before. Time just brings you rich experience, you rearrange the past with rich experience, as if the past is so beautiful, this is a very simple logical problem, we all know, but they are unwilling to admit their past incompetence, I am the same.
In the past, now, I have never tried to really complete a thing, the public account seems to be my biggest challenge these years, adhere to the original, can insist on how long? If you’ve written about it, you know it’s hard, blowing water doesn’t count, I can do 10 a day. The hard part is how do you guarantee quality, Zhou Geng?
A lot of people complain about the teachers when they are studying, the teachers are just a brush stroke, now I don’t think so, you know, but it doesn’t mean that you can clearly impart and express your ideas to others. All say that reading broken volumes, writing such as god, I think that should have broken volumes, how still constipation. So, can only tell yourself, is not enough, you do really not enough. It’s hard, but it’s real.
I just kept telling myself, when I didn’t want to write, when I was tired, if you don’t write, you might lose your job tomorrow and starve to death the day after tomorrow. Maybe I’m just afraid to die. I’m afraid I still don’t have a child, I have a lot of games, reality I have to practice a number.
When all of our past experiences, all of our lifelong learning, all the water in our brains has been emptied, maybe, we know what to do now.
Over the years, something always seems to pop out of my mind and make me feel uncomfortable, so just write it out. Compared with writing technical articles, it seems that you won’t get constipated when writing such things, and everything goes smoothly and smoothly.
I don’t deserve to be beaten at what I’m good at, do I?
I said a lot of things, but it was only an hour to think of things, all the way down, think of where is where. And told all the children in reading, now most probably really are a child, it is now hard, ever also someone said to me, I, as a result, I use this decade may have haven’t fill in the pit, perhaps, this is a bottomless pit, always him until you fill in and cover the earth, can also have a bulge bag, Insert a brand again, Zhang SAN to this earth a tour, boring, today, Angelica.
The book is finished.
19:03 Wednesday, 4 November 2020
To yu